In this perpetual high..

When the mind is high beyond the above...when the body is light beyond feeling..when you look and you cannot see..when you touch and you cannot feel..when you open but do not recieve..when you cry but do not hurt..when you laugh but do not smile..when you talk but do no communicate..when you stretch out but do not reach..when you sleep but eyes still wide open..when gravity has given up..you soar..
A constant pull and push game..leaves you somewhere in the inbetween of nowhere..and then a shower of kisses that are meant to comfort..but wear out as the hands keep ticking away..
And you scratch and scratch at the door that wont open..and scream to a non existant soul who promised you assurance and protection..go on..tell me to keep the faith..but where is the strength to stay on and believe in a better tomorrow..how do i look forward to a tomorrow when time is nothing but a cruel reminder of my pathetic struggle..
My conscience has failed me..my senses have failed me..a blissful torment of the mind..of the body..i asked for reason..but you gave me confusion..i called for understanding..but you sent me violence..
Send me a release to world of black and white where colours will not blind and confuse me..a world where the beach waters will carry my tears and the grains of sand hold my feet which is losing ground and the air to flow into my conjusted lungs..a world where my divided mind and soul can survive peacfully as one and not fall victim to conflict..where i can survive as an escapee in a sea of escapees..
I want to be a genius.. and be able to calculate the ingredients that would make up a perfect world..an artist..and be able to create and mould elements that bind this world together..where i can find myself..where i can lose myself..hate freely and not be hated for it..
My present state of mind..in this perpetual high..will not confine to normality..i wish to be more than ordinary..i wish to be higher
Give me strength...

Songs to listen to : Lost by Coldplay, Hear me out by Frou Frou

A compilation of thoughts from among the silence

Its the awkward silences that are sometimes loud enough to put you in a position to wander how when and why..
Its the secret glance falling across the skin of your face thats powerful enough to set the hair on your arms to stand..
Its the soft feeling of her shoulder against yours thats hard enough to let your ears pick up the sudden quick beating of your heart..
Its the cool breath near your neck thats deep enough to let you close your eyes and smile easy..
Its the special voice thats strong enough to shut off the unpleasant things that once enveloped you..
Its the simple smile on her face thats big enough to swell up your slowly shrinking heart..
Its her and all her..thats enough to complete you..
Dear Friend..
I love you and thank you..
:)
Song to listen to : Sleeping to dream by Jason Mraz (Acoustic live version)

P.S ..Thanks to all of you who make it so hard for me to forget you and move on..who still give me reasons to laugh and cry and remind me that life is good and yet still worth complaining about..and thankyou for reminding me that im not alone..

much love..

yours truly,

Resh <3

:D