When the mind is high beyond the above...when the body is light beyond feeling..when you look and you cannot see..when you touch and you cannot feel..when you open but do not recieve..when you cry but do not hurt..when you laugh but do not smile..when you talk but do no communicate..when you stretch out but do not reach..when you sleep but eyes still wide open..when gravity has given up..you soar..
A constant pull and push game..leaves you somewhere in the inbetween of nowhere..and then a shower of kisses that are meant to comfort..but wear out as the hands keep ticking away..
And you scratch and scratch at the door that wont open..and scream to a non existant soul who promised you assurance and protection..go on..tell me to keep the faith..but where is the strength to stay on and believe in a better tomorrow..how do i look forward to a tomorrow when time is nothing but a cruel reminder of my pathetic struggle..
My conscience has failed me..my senses have failed me..a blissful torment of the mind..of the body..i asked for reason..but you gave me confusion..i called for understanding..but you sent me violence..
Send me a release to world of black and white where colours will not blind and confuse me..a world where the beach waters will carry my tears and the grains of sand hold my feet which is losing ground and the air to flow into my conjusted lungs..a world where my divided mind and soul can survive peacfully as one and not fall victim to conflict..where i can survive as an escapee in a sea of escapees..
I want to be a genius.. and be able to calculate the ingredients that would make up a perfect world..an artist..and be able to create and mould elements that bind this world together..where i can find myself..where i can lose myself..hate freely and not be hated for it..
My present state of mind..in this perpetual high..will not confine to normality..i wish to be more than ordinary..i wish to be higher
Give me strength...
Songs to listen to : Lost by Coldplay, Hear me out by Frou Frou
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'i called for understanding..but you sent me violence..
Send me a release to world of black and white where colours will not blind and confuse me..a world where the beach waters will carry my tears and the grains of sand hold my feet which is losing ground and the air to flow into my conjusted lungs..a world where my divided mind and soul can survive peacfully as one and not fall victim to conflict..where i can survive as an escapee in a sea of escapees..'
The best :)
Whoooaaa !!
Man you write well...
Can see the amount of emotion that has gone into this. A beauty!
Where do u get this stuff man. Seriously, wow. I love reading ur blog...
u should seriously consider becoming a writer .... lol ill be ur agent ;)
i want to copy this onto Microsoft Word, delete all the (...)s, put in some proper punctuation, print it, add some colour, enlarge it, stick it up on my ceiling so i can read it everyday before i go to sleep.
This is one hell of a post.
=)
[PS. I LOVEEEEEEE LOST! by Coldplay, it is BEYOND awesome!]
OMG! I haven't visited your blog in such a long time. Love this post man. You can really write well. Your flow of thoughts are fascinating. Some lines towards the end suddenly gave a 'i am a megalomaniac' impression. Love this post =D
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